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HOLD UP.. Read the first part of this two part series: Why EMI IS For Me BEFORE reading this blog! Alright, now that you know how blessed I feel to be a part of EMI, lets jump right into scripture:
“Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.” -Psalm 37:41
I believe that when I desire to do God’s will, God aligns my passions with purpose. Thank God I’m wise enough to understand my passions & purpose because they are the reasons I know EMI Is Not All of me.
As you read in the first part of this blog, I am passionate about EMI and a lot of my passions align with what EMI already does. However, I have strong passions that aren’t necessarily a part of EMI’s vision. I’m passionate about helping oppressed Americans break cycle of poverty, whereas EMI is focused on developing countries. I’m passionate about increasing engineering diversity in America, whereas EMI is currently focused on diversifying their staff of local design professional overseas. I’m extremely passionate about racial reconciliation within American cultures, whereas EMI is primarily focused on understanding the cultures of the people they serve overseas.
When I realized this a couple days after the EMI conference, God reassured me that he will honor my passions because the world is still in need. God reminded me how confusing it is to hold a position I’m passionate about without understanding my unique purpose.
Recently, I was extremely passionate about this engineering organization’s mission and gave my all to it’s success. I held multiple leadership positions at the chapter and regional levels, but my involvement with this organization was a bit of a rollercoaster ride. Often times I ignored my personal wellbeing and endured unnecessary hardships for the sake of the organization. I held positions that allowed me to create programs from scratch and used them to advance the entire society. When my positional duties were overruled or removed, I was left hurt and confused. I was so passionate about MY roles, MY programs and MY initiatives, I unconsciously thought this organization was MY purpose. I thought it’s mission was my mission. That’s when it finally clicked:
“My entire purpose cannot be contained in a position. This is because my purpose is from God and therefore can not be taken from me. A position most likely can be taken away.”
It would have been great to know this while on that rollercoaster with my last engineering organization. Nonetheless, I can now Ugly Cry because I realize that pain helped me understand..
When God called me to EMI, He gave me wisdom concerning my purpose and how I can walk it out while serving with EMI. As I discussed in My Sweet Spot blog, EMI is helping me fulfill my purpose during this season, but it’s not ALL my purpose. It’s still a M-F position that can be taken away at any time. What about the weekends? I have to understand my purpose outside of this position. EMI was created over 35 years ago from it’s founder vision, not my vision. EMI’s mission is AMAZING, but I believe that God gave me my own mission that I can walk out while serving and developing with EMI. EMI is my purpose partner.
I will go through seasons of my life where my passions and purpose slightly change and mirrors others. This allows me to join the Body of Christ while fulfilling my destiny. This allows room for growth and my mission to mature as I do. Thank you God!
“Father God, thank you for equipping me to serve and develop with EMI. You prepared their hearts, skills and vision to uniquely align with mine to fulfill a great need on earth. Thank you for using them to give me my Ugly Cry. I prayed for my purpose and You revealed it to me. I asked You to confirm if EMI was for me and You did.2 You are giving me boldness and strength to use the skills I learn while with EMI to be the bridge between the barriers that divide people and contribute to poverty. I’m forever in awe of your omniscience. In Jesus name, Amen.”
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With God’s Love,
Jamara Beard ❤